Hi dear readers,
The weekend is coming closer and I cannot wait, as usual, to have some nice rest. Stress is becoming more important, more papers to be marked, classes to prepare, some meetings with fellow teachers, some approaches I need to modify, etc. In a nutshell, my mind is not having any rest. Hopefully, I have found some solutions today so I am less under pressure. Still, I know some other obstacles will be coming my way. Besides, my personal life has taken a nice turn. Though things are looking nicer, I can feel and observe that some of my friends are « fading away ». Is is a skimming-process, meaning that some people are not meant to be part of my life any longer? Though I am happy, more smiling, I have some clouds in my heart. Hopefully I have found somebody who understand and more importantly, who doesn’t take things too personally, unlike me.
Well, I need to get back to the subject at hand. For some months now I have noticed that I had not had any real time to go deeper into my spiritual life. Am I not ready? Am I true to my spiritual commitments? Am I faithful or waiting for any relevant signs showing me where to head to?
Today, when I had an appointment with my bank manager, I thanked Mercury with grateful thoughts about the deal I was doing with him (not Mercury, the bank manager). I have not prayed to Mercury that much but seems I will have to talk to him more often. Of course, Athena is my shield-maiden, I do not dare ask Hekate for guidance though tough moments and times (though I sometimes think about her), I wonder whether to study more about Cerrydwen. There is so much to discover with so many Deities that I have been feeling guilty for not having enough time to devote myself to them. What should I do if I am in need of time to make way for them into my life?
I hope to find a satisfying answer soon!