This card drawn is not for today but the share is meant to let you know that I have been ill for a week and been draining myself in social meetings and events so that now I truly should take care of myself and clear all the hurdles fluttering about in my mind (or sometimes in my heart). Even though some sentences, words and feelings have been spoken out with a friend of mine, I feel I need to be away in the dark (not necessarily to punish myself for having done, acted, spoken in a way or another; but to let go of some chains, touchiness and get better and come back recharged and energetic). All my life, even though I was the one in need for help and care, I listened to some in distress, was around talking and walking, counselling even and came back home drained, frustrated and unloved or unacknowledged as I wanted.
Now that I am working and the workplace is not close, I feel it is time I redefined my framework in social, affective, familial aspects. Finances will be dealt with later. As for my spiritual path, I have just gone through a little desert. I am seeing today and tomorrow I am at now.
Honestly, I need a knight, a lover, a companion. Will it come soon?