Shout, shout, let it all out

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Hi dear readers,

I am just back from work (well, « just » back?), just woke up and drank my tea. My tea has a weird taste in the morning. Perhaps I should, as sometimes I had done in the past, start my day with just lemon drops in cold water, I would feel alright and more lively. Yes, I have a job for a couple of months and it feels great to say to people you are meeting (for the first time or once again) you’ve just taken on a job which is not what I studied for. Anyway, with such an everlasting global crisis we’ve been going through, who cares? Well, I care or used to care much about something I could seemingly never attain. Nevertheless, I am feeling more like a grown-up. Yes, I am still living at my parents’ house and I have to admit this fucked me up because of the minds of the neighbourhood and some other people with whom the inevitable question arising would sound like this: « What do you do for a living? Where do you live? ». We have never come up with other strange ideas to get started with a conversation when coming across new people. How could we change thhis matter of fact? No offence to any of you, dear readers. Just asking, just pondering 🙂

 

These days have been so-so. Oh yes, I do dare say it, these days were so-so. Hopefully, I am able to take advantage of all the good sides, good laughter before the storm is coming back. I am just taking on this job and I am a bit awkward (not to say I can utterly awkward as the sun is not sending many rays for some vitamin D). I have to deal with customers, know my rooms, which ones are not fit for tall people or for the crippled, we have no lift. Take everything into consideration. Sometimes, I do get bored. All of a sudden, it may change and a group may need my help or something else. That’s my job. While learning the ropes of the trade, I was thinking a bit too much about things never said but « buried » deep inside. Anything not making me smile and a bit outspoken could hurt me. It got much better yesterday. Everything was a bit disturbin to my eyes: having to drive for almost 2 hours all alone to my workplace, sleeping in my workplace where the room is so « blank », where I don’t have my habits yet, this awkward weather, the lack of sun, not having friends or mates around where I am working were good reasons to make me feel stressed. Hope it will not last.

 

As for my practice as a new polytheist, I must admit that’s not that easy. I have been told for months I am stretching myself out a bit everywhere, but not specializing into a specific area. Seems it’s the same as to my professional career. I have always been a busybody and I loathe my ignorance. The Web is overly full of resources, teaching websites, blogs, Facebook groups about a cornucopia of this and that and that again. This is sometimes much too much and I am feeling into the trap, as usual. It drains me and where have I got so far? Not too far away from the startplace. Stop making circles, go straight ahead. Not that easy, hu?

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Une Celte passionnée, analysant parfois trop, curieuse et toujours avec des idées parfois farfelues. Végétarienne, mélomane, poétesse et renouant avec la Nature et ses cycles. Ce blog est mon repaire, parfois un peu fantasque, échevelé, alambiqué et souvent très spontané. A vegetarian Celtic lady, roaming on the Earth and a stargazer, passionate, sensitive, sometimes a warrior. This blog is my lair where I play with concepts, words, thoughts and dreams.

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